It's been almost three years since then, since my dull, boring life was drastically altered by a certain Mr nice guy. I never got the chance to see him again after that, but my friends claim they still do, at random times, at random places. But unlike my old self 3years ago, things about him doesnt interest me anymore. For d longing for the day that he would return my feelings no longer exists. Already a HAS BEEN.
And everything which hurts me then seems like nothing but a distant past now. In mists, BLISSFULLY FORGOTTEN.
For i am no longer the girl who is stupidly longing for his affection. She's gone. Already a HISTORY.
Love do fades
ABSOLUTELY.
But until now, there would still be the times that ld sit and reminisce the bitter-sweet memories about the guy i used to call MR NICE GUY.. the guy who used to occupy a great part of me, the guy,who's up to now,is still oblivious about the fact that sometime in the past, he had drastically changed someone's life.
But unlike before, i can now think about him and his memories without any tinge of bitterness at all. For i can say now that i have already HEALED, that i was OVER
with my mad feelings for him.
For i've long
grown tired of
longing and waiting
for that certain STAR
to FALL into
my HANDS
But then, i cant deny the fact that he would always be
a PART
OF ME,
a PART OF
MY LIFE
But he's no longer
a part of NOW,
nor wont be a
part of
TOMORROW,
JUST a
PART from
the PAST.
I first saw him during the Community Health Nursing orientation in Palagay. I guess i had been totally mesmerized by his boyish face that i didnt realized that i had been staring at him for quite a long time already from the school bus i was in. He must have felt it for he look into my direction,still laughing from whatever prattle he's having with his classmates. With a brow lifted inquiringly, eyes lighted with humor, his gaze lingers curiously into my dumbfounded face and I literally forgot how to breath for a couple of seconds time, startled, i felt a rush of blood on my face due to the humiliation of being caught off guard. His laughing eyes held mine and i quickly terminate the contact with an indifferent look i managed to wear behind a face burning in shame.
CHN duties
Mid evaluation
Academic classes
Quizzes
exams
return demos
family problems
personal struggles..
Ive been quite busy with my sophomore life that i had somehow unconsciously forgotten that guy and that certain incident in Palagay..
First semester has finally ended
Enrollment for the second semester started
While lining up before the nursing office one day..i find myself suddenly frozen, caught in delighting suprise..i wasnt expecting my initial reaction upon seeing him but i was suddenly tachycardic. My heart starts to misbehave and tend
to pump harder than usual..
Unexpectedly, after so many months of absence,of life w/o the sight of that remarkably friendly face, i saw him again. He was there, standing just several meters away from me, in flesh and blood, so vividly alive. Clad in a pretty pink and white crisp poloshirt, his hair neatly gelled up, he can help but stands out among the crowd. He's with his friends. A girl beside him says something and he started laughing heartily. His eyes beaming with joy and he looks so beautiful. Seeing his familiar irresistable grin, my heart is barely controllable from somersaulting by then.
"psst.. si __ o.. uyy...." i heard a bunch of girls giggling while exchanging knowing glances and looking at his direction with delighted looks upon their eyes..
okey, so he's the familiar _______, a quite popular figure in the university for one year ago, he bagged the Mr Nursing title. (im just not familiar with his face because i belong to the night classes when i was a freshman)
..We had already finished the first step of enrollment. The sectioning has been alphabetized, so some from the section E where i am belong to, were moved to section D. And my friends and I have been included..
A thought
flickers
in an instant..
his surname..
OMG!
Then that
would mean....
Semestral break is OVER..
Second semester has BEGUN,
And we become classmates, I and Mr Nice Guy.
Now i get to see him everyday and i get to learn more about him as days pass by. And i cant help but to be more fond of him because he's everything a girl would dream of:
He's nice..
sweet
fun to be with
he smiles a lot..
he's friendly
easy to be with
he talks with sense
he has that expressive brown eyes
he's humble
simple
intelligent
charming
laidback
a perfect gentleman
and so he became
the epitome of
my IDEAL GUY..
But then eventhough he's friendly by nature,i still find it hard to befriend him..i am so painfully shy then.. So conscious with myself when he's around.. So ive created an invisible wall between us..for me to be able to guard my feelings from being known. And to be able to guard mine as well.
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